Big Brother Part 5

So I'm nearing the end of this whole business. Maybe, I think. Supposedly I'll only be on the Accutane for another few weeks. I'm looking forward to not having to deal with my painfully dry skin, cracked lips or the monthly sties that keep popping up (I just got a new one yesterday, my eye is pretty badly swollen this morning. Thankfully I still have medication from the last two times).

I'm at the point that I see the light at the end of the tunnel in terms of no longer needing to take the medication or deal with the side effects, but I'm not really happy. My skin's not as clear as I want it to be. It's not just that it hasn't healed yet... that comes and goes, but more that I'm still getting breakouts.

I was always under the impression that Accutane was some sort of miracle drug. You'd think that too if you heard the way my dermatologist and the nurses in her office talk about it. From the beginning they ooh'ed and ahh'ed about how wonderful the results are and how beautiful my skin would look. 8 months in I just don't see it. I don't see the smooth, glowing complexion that everyone swore this drug would give me. Don't get me wrong, there is a world of difference between the way my skin looked when I started and they way it looks now. It's a long way off from permanent breakouts of cystic acne; it's way less painful, even with the dry skin, chapped lips and eczema. It's just not perfect.

I'm disappointed.

I know I have to make the best of this, but I don't want to have to keep up with creams and lotions and medications after I'm done with this. I also really don't want to have to do another round of Accutane, jumping through all the hoops just to get a prescription in the first place, dealing with the onslaught of side-effects, and the vampire-ness that it requires.

I have at least another few weeks on the medication (my next appointment is on the 19th) and I'm sure quite a bit of time using all sorts of stuff to make me skin heal-

-Just as an aside, the last prescription she gave me was for Bionect, which, when filled generically comes in a large plastic bottle that looks more like it should be in a laboratory than on the shelves of a pharmacy. No money was wasted on package degsign here. It's just a plain clear bottle, filled with a clear gel, proudly proclaiming Sodium Hyaluronate .02 %.-

I guess I just need to keep waiting, like I have been. Maybe, in the end it'll all wok out.